faith when it counts.

Faith is a freakin huge part of my life. It defines everything I do, from how I treat people to the words I speak. Granted I slip up...a lot. But it's chill. If I didn't screw up something would be terribly wrong. It will always be apart of me...nothing can take it away. So this raises a question. Is it possible to really fall away from the faith? If a Christian totally turns their back on the faith that used to define them...were they a Christian to start with or were they decieved? Maybe....just maybe we analyze it too much. Maybe faith is just supposed to be something simple, not something to be analyzed so much like we do. I mean, Jesus did say to have "child-like faith". Guess you could say we live in an overly-analytical society...

holiness and forgiveness.

so many times i think that we forget who God really is.  earlier i read sara acker's blog about the King.  she had a Bible verse from Habbukuk that said something about God riding through the sea on horses.  Sara said how she could see God riding in through the seas on these huge, powerful white horses and how beautiful it is that we serve an awesome God, the King of the universe, "everything seen and unseen".  I replied by saying " and he calls us friend..."  How beautiful!  this God who created everything we have the ability to see and everything so far out we may never get a chance to even know that it's out there...He cares about us.  I mean, it's so huge!  Take a look at your hand...see those ridges that make up your fingerprints?  You know why those are there?  To keep things from slipping out of your hands!!  You know what else?  Everybody's is different!  Everybody on this entire planet has a different genetic code.  No 2 snowflakes are alike.  You'll never see the same sunset twice.

And you know...He freakin knew, long before He created humans, that we would fall and break His heart a thousand times.  He knew He'd have to die a painful death, even if it was just for one person.  He knew that a bunch of people would choose Hell over His love.  BUT, He forgave us anyway.  I wrote this song one sunday morning during church about this..

Even Though

By: Laura Tompkins

Oh God, I can’t even understand
Why You’d die for me
You saw me before I was thought of,
Oh, You knew all about me
Before I was conceived

Chorus: Even though You knew
I’d walk out on You
Even though You knew
I’d break Your heart a thousand times,
You forgave me anyway.
And even though You knew
I’d slam the door in your face,
And walk out on You more
Times than once,
You forgave me anyway.
Oh, You forgive me anyway.

God, show us Your mercy
Show us Your love.
Teach us to love one another,
The way You loved
Each of us.

Chorus

Break: God help me to forgive
The ones who hurt me most
Show me how to love,
And forgive them anyway…

reminder to myself...

to anyone that might actually read this...this is basically a reminder so i'll hopefully grab my soap box again sometime tomorrow and spill it about the reverence of God.  i've got a lot to say about it.  got started tonight and wish i could continue but it's late and i need to get to bed before i get in t-r-o-u-b-l-e.  yeah that's right ...trouble...gotta love it!  oh, eventually i'll talk about tempers too...cause i've got a bad one!!

Indescribable

Earlier today I recorded Indescribable on my mac...Believe it or not it actually sounds kinda cool.  I'm thinking about giving it to my mom for Christmas.  Actually..yeah I think I will.  She's always trying to get me to sing so I might as well.  Just as long as no one else hears it.  I'm not in the mood for mean comments lol.  Speaking of which, I'm trying to upload it to myspace but it keeps telling me it's too big and it's really ticking me off.  For the moment I've lost interest in trying to record anymore songs seeing as it's not going anywhere haha.  I'll have to get back to this...I just wanted to blog out my frustrations!!

GROW UP!

I swear it never ceases to amaze me how immature people are.  I get to witness it every day in band.  They can turn any inanimate object into something so vulgar it should be illegal.  I mean, today I was talking to someone about cars.  I said I wanted one with a lot of trunk room so that I can easily fit all my instruments and what not into it.  I won't say what he said or give any examples from it.  It was just inappropriate and everything in between.  He's totally disrespectful to girls and it really, really ticks me off.  What makes me mad is when people hurt children in any way.  It also ticks me off when guys mistreat girls.  Even more so when girls LET them do this to them!  One of the sick and twisted mysteries of life this is.  I just hope young Luci never has to deal with this crap.  It's just absolutely astounding...I mean I can't come up with better words for it!

Well, that's my thought for today.  Those of you that read this, please pray for me...my heart is very troubled...

Thanks all!

Love,

Laura T.

God came through...

I don't know how many of you who might read this have ever heard/experienced a dreaded thing called the Senior Project.  It's this major thing the school holds over our heads that we have to pass in order to graduate.  It consists of finding a mentor, doing something challenging, and writing a 7-11 page paper on something related...well, for my project I learned how to play the cello and I wrote my paper on how music therapy can help alleviate stress from teenagers.  I worked so freakin hard on that paper.  I got so stressed that if I told you, you wouldn't believe me.  I don't even believe it now myself but it was so real I could've died.  If you so much as just hugged me, even for a couple seconds you could feel it...yeah, THAT bad!  I also had to learn the cello in like 2 months or so and I had some serious problems with that.  I went through times, sometimes a week or more at a time when I hated it so bad.  God provides though...I ended up getting a brand new cello!  Not only that but my brother and I played together for my final recital (he was on classical guitar) and we totally rocked it!  For my presentation i got a 99, I got a 98 on my paper, and a 99 on my portfolio!  I slaid that thing!  And I couldn't have done it without God!  He's my everything...My Best Friend, my Savior, my Provider...Just everything!!

Thank You, God, for everything...You've given me all the desires of my heart and then some.  I know I can trust you with anything, no matter what may come my way.  You'll always be "My Freedom" (Krystal Meyers)!!!

Pain...

Pain is worth it.  Now before you start thinking of how unsensitive I am, please hear me out.  As hard as it is, pain is what makes us who we are...it's what makes us appreciate all the good things in life and of course the people who are there for us in those times and God.  It brings us closer to each other and to God.  I believe as a Christian that God won't let us go through anything He knows we can't handle.  Therefor pain is like an honor...you know?  During times of severe pain and sorrow, I know it's hard to believe this...it's hard enough just to get through each day, let alone breathe.  To me it's such a relief to think of it that God knows best, so there ain't know way He's gonna make us go through more than He knows we can handle.

I don't know, I thought of this awhile back and I thought it was kinda cool...hope y'all enjoy it!

Love,

Laura t.