Always Loved

Hello, there! For the select few of you who have the link to this blog, and anyone else who happens to stumble across this, there are a few things I want you to know. For 1 thing, i am always going to be honest. This is where i share pieces of my heart, be it the beauty or the nasty things that happen. 2. You. Are. LOVED. It doesn't matter who you are or where you've been, or where you're going. You are loved, and you are a special treasure. I love you, even if I haven't met you, but more than me, there is a greater Love who loves you. Call him what you may, be it Allah, Yahweh, Jesus...He loves you so much! He spells it out in Creation and the little beauties that occur in life. He is ever present in pain and in strife. And He loves YOU.

Monday, September 21, 2009

God is light

(the book i'm talking about is Through Painted Deserts)

The thing that definitely stuck out to me the most in this book would have to be the beginning of Chapter Five. The author is talking about the metaphor of God being light. It’s such a beautiful mystery. I’ve never put much thought into light. I mean it’s light; it’s just there. I suppose after 18 years of traipsing around I’ve just come to take that for granted. Actually I don’t think I’ve ever been very fascinated to light. “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12).

Light in itself is a mystery. It travels 150,000 miles per second. That is absolutely ridiculous. As I sit here typing this I’m thinking about how fast that must be and how it takes seemingly no time at all to light up a dark room at the flip of a switch. And the sun, it illuminates the whole earth! Not only that, but it also heats it up. And then at night we have the moon and stars! What glorious beauty! Sometimes at night I will lie out somewhere and just star gaze. Sometimes I’m lucky enough to catch a shooting star or two. When I look into the sky, I like to think of it like I’m looking into the face of God. The stars are like His eyes; when they sparkle it’s like His eyes twinkling with delight over me. And every time I see a shooting star, it’s like a promise to me. A promise that says He’s with me always, no matter what. Despite all my questions and doubts, despite anything I’ve ever said or done, His promise remains faithful and true.

So, like light, God is mysterious. After all, “we don’t see light; we see what it touches” (Through Painted Deserts 60). Therefore we obviously don’t see God; we see what He touches. We see when He touches a single mother trying to raise 3 children on her own. We can see when He touches our own lives in ways that can’t be explained. His touch is everywhere and we see it. But do we acknowledge it?

Saturday, September 19, 2009

more on faith, spirituality, and the likes...

Dear Reader,

You are about to enter into a deep chamber of my heart. There are many chambers in my heart and this one cuts to the core of who I am. It's what makes me...me. Know what it is? Well, if you read the title, you got it. It's a thing I like to call faith. Not religion, just faith. Where I stand spiritually.

If you so desire to give me a label, call me a Christian. A reflection of Christ, yes, Christ Himself, no. I am not perfect therefor I do not strive for it. I believe that is a common misconception for Christians. We come off like we're supposed to be perfect; like being a Christ follower and ultimately a reflection of Christ, we're supposed to be perfect like Christ. Such a common misconception I know. We're pretty dang good at putting out that stereotype. (and yes I say we...I am in fact a Christian...well...sort of...)

I was thinking about my death in class one day. No, not suicide, my death. How I'll die, what it's gonna feel like, where I'll end up...yeah..my death. You know, I used to say that if I died and found out that Heaven isn't real, that God's not there, all this Jesus stuff is folk-lore...that that'd be ok. I'd have nothing to lose. What a load of crap. I have everything to lose. Why? Because my faith is everything I am. It makes up the core of my being, it's who I am. Ready to dive deeper? Hold on tight cause this road's about to get rough.

My religion is Christianity and my faith lies with Jesus Christ. I have faith that He's who the Bible says He was/is; my Savior. So when I die....if i have any consciousness whatsoever...and i found out somehow that everything i've lived for, what i'd die for is a lie...i'd be devastated. I lived and died a lie.

But on the other hand...when i die..if i find out that everything is truth...well...i'm sure you can only imagine.

sinncerely yours,
Laura T.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

spirituality...

alright...i'm at a very vulnerable place with mine...i'll edit this more when i have the time.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

faith when it counts.

Faith is a freakin huge part of my life. It defines everything I do, from how I treat people to the words I speak. Granted I slip up...a lot. But it's chill. If I didn't screw up something would be terribly wrong. It will always be apart of me...nothing can take it away. So this raises a question. Is it possible to really fall away from the faith? If a Christian totally turns their back on the faith that used to define them...were they a Christian to start with or were they decieved? Maybe....just maybe we analyze it too much. Maybe faith is just supposed to be something simple, not something to be analyzed so much like we do. I mean, Jesus did say to have "child-like faith". Guess you could say we live in an overly-analytical society...

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

holiness and forgiveness.

so many times i think that we forget who God really is.  earlier i read sara acker's blog about the King.  she had a Bible verse from Habbukuk that said something about God riding through the sea on horses.  Sara said how she could see God riding in through the seas on these huge, powerful white horses and how beautiful it is that we serve an awesome God, the King of the universe, "everything seen and unseen".  I replied by saying " and he calls us friend..."  How beautiful!  this God who created everything we have the ability to see and everything so far out we may never get a chance to even know that it's out there...He cares about us.  I mean, it's so huge!  Take a look at your hand...see those ridges that make up your fingerprints?  You know why those are there?  To keep things from slipping out of your hands!!  You know what else?  Everybody's is different!  Everybody on this entire planet has a different genetic code.  No 2 snowflakes are alike.  You'll never see the same sunset twice.

And you know...He freakin knew, long before He created humans, that we would fall and break His heart a thousand times.  He knew He'd have to die a painful death, even if it was just for one person.  He knew that a bunch of people would choose Hell over His love.  BUT, He forgave us anyway.  I wrote this song one sunday morning during church about this..

Even Though

By: Laura Tompkins

Oh God, I can’t even understand
Why You’d die for me
You saw me before I was thought of,
Oh, You knew all about me
Before I was conceived

Chorus: Even though You knew
I’d walk out on You
Even though You knew
I’d break Your heart a thousand times,
You forgave me anyway.
And even though You knew
I’d slam the door in your face,
And walk out on You more
Times than once,
You forgave me anyway.
Oh, You forgive me anyway.

God, show us Your mercy
Show us Your love.
Teach us to love one another,
The way You loved
Each of us.

Chorus

Break: God help me to forgive
The ones who hurt me most
Show me how to love,
And forgive them anyway…

Monday, January 19, 2009

reminder to myself...

to anyone that might actually read this...this is basically a reminder so i'll hopefully grab my soap box again sometime tomorrow and spill it about the reverence of God.  i've got a lot to say about it.  got started tonight and wish i could continue but it's late and i need to get to bed before i get in t-r-o-u-b-l-e.  yeah that's right ...trouble...gotta love it!  oh, eventually i'll talk about tempers too...cause i've got a bad one!!